Thursday, January 30, 2014

“Hurt”

I just finished reading Johnny Cash, Robert Hilburn’s biography of The Man in Black.  For anyone who is a music fan, I highly recommend this, and I mean fans of any American music genre because Cash’s influence and legacy extends in all directions.  He embraced music, lyrics in particular, that spoke to him, and he recorded the writing of singer/songwriters from old time gospel and blues to U2 and Nine Inch Nails.

His last recordings were done with Rick Rubin, a real surprise to everyone in the industry since Rubin was associated more with rock artists, but they became close friends and Rubin was an incredible advocate for Cash’s final work.  When they were recording the album “The Man Comes Around” in what is known as the American Recordings collection, Rubin wanted to do a music video of Cash’s version of the song “Hurt,” by Nine Inch Nails front man Trent Reznor.  Mark Romanek, who had done videos for the likes of NIN, Michael Jackson, and David Bowie, was all but begging to make it.  It turned out to be what most in the industry consider the best music video ever produced.  I intend to attach a YouTube link to this so you can see and hear the song.

Cash didn’t change much with Reznor’s lyrics, just a word or two.  What is most different is that his version becomes much more universal in its description of a person in great pain and suffering from personal loss.  Reznor had written about the agony of drug use and abuse—this was shortly after Kurt Cobain OD’d—and Cash had lost several family members and close friends simply to age.  When Cash recorded the song, he and June both new their days were numbered.  As I read Hilburn’s account of the recording sessions and the descriptions of what was going on in John’s and June’s lives, and then went back to think about Reznor’s lyrics, I thought about how the song reflects the pain and hurt I often saw sitting in front of me in my classrooms.

In my four decades as a teacher I dealt with losses of several students and colleagues and their family members.  Teachers are human beings.  They have feelings like everyone else, but like many professionals, when the alarm clock goes off on a school day, they suit up, put on a smile, and do their best for their students.  Many times no one knows they’re ill—physically or mentally—or that they’re grieving or just worried, sometimes frantically.  I’ve seen a colleague I knew was in her own tremendous emotional pain drop everything to help a student deal with breaking up with her boyfriend, offering a consoling shoulder and calming advice.  Then I took a box of tissues to my friend and closed the door on her classroom so she could pull herself together in the five minutes left before the next class.

The most difficult part of a teacher’s day, however, is managing the emotional rollercoasters of all of the students she faces.  Not just one carnival ride.  Usually twenty or thirty.  In each class.  Every day.  Teachers prepare academic lessons and plan means for organizing and controlling the learning environment, but being prepared to deal with the trauma students face on a daily basis is probably the single most superhuman feat educators perform.  Every one of those students, from the most likely to be depressed to the one who seems bubble-headed and unaffected by everything, all go through the same kinds of adolescent nightmares.

Think back.   Remember the pain of broken promises and relationships?  The skin eruption twenty minutes before you went out with your biggest crush?  An embarrassing faux pas in the hallway or cafeteria?  Your perceived ineptitude at one thing or another…that was laughingly pointed out by the class bully?  Or maybe the crushing solitude that made you consider the world a better place without you?  How about the physical abuse in some relationships?  I’ve seen sixteen year-old girls in pancaked makeup and long sleeves who were hiding the bruises from their boyfriends.  And I’ve spoken with students about the abuse they’ve received from their parents or family “friends.”  Over and over they come to class, while dealing with illness and death in their families.

I can’t even list all of the possibilities or the examples from my career because I saw them in those seats.  They were seventh graders, freshmen, seniors, college sophomores, even graduate students.  We teach them all.  We try to reach them all and then help them learn whatever subject we’re responsible for delivering.  And these days get them through the state tests.

Watch the video.  Listen to the song.  Watch Johnny.  He would lose June just a few months later.  When he did this shoot, his eyesight was so poor that they had to tell him where the camera was, and the vocals are spliced together bits and pieces of multiple recording sessions because his asthma wouldn’t let him finish a phrase.  He couldn’t walk, either, except to be helped into a wheelchair.  He hurt, but he was Johnny Cash.  He was human, and he got up every time and went on with living.  Remember, too, that he didn’t do it alone.  No one can.



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